Sadly, this changing season also marks a very difficult change in the Vandrey household. Tomorrow, I return to work after 3 months of maternity leave and Hunter starts Day Care. Every time I think about it I get choked up. Ryan is handling it much better than I. Of course he feels bad for me and knows it will be a tough transition, but he has been back to work for quite a while now, so he is use to leaving Hunter every day. I, on the other hand, have not spent more than 4 hours apart from Hunter since the day he was born.
I realize there are benefits to this change; I will have a structured schedule again; I'll be making money with which I can provide Hunter with not only everything he needs but also a lot of things he wants; Hunter will have access to many new fun toys and experiences at Day Care; he's going to learn a ton from Connie (his Day Care provider) as well as the other children she cares for. Despite knowing all of that, when I'm home playing and cuddling with Hunter in the middle of the afternoon, it's hard to think positively about anything that will end those moments. It's also heartbreaking to think of all the "firsts" I am going to miss when we are apart, and there is something very special about watching your child do something for the very first time and seeing the joy/shock/excitement/pride on his face when it happens. I know in my head that this is the very best thing for our family, but my heart just doesn't want to let go!
Here are some photos and videos of the things I'm going to miss most when we are apart:
Playing together and finding new ways to make him smile and squeal...
Checking on him during nap time to find him snoring and making sucking faces...
Afternoon walks and cuddles...
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